It has taken me longer than anticipated to write this next installment. My sister Lauren and I went to Louisiana last weekend to join Dad & Marianne for their first return to the house. This is what we saw, what happened over the course of those several days, and a bit of what has happened since. It is all a bit of a whirl.
On Thursday night, 8 September, Dad phoned me to say that he had secured a special pass, which would permit us to go with them to the house in Metairie, Jefferson Parish otherwise closed to non-residents. Lauren & I decided to go as soon as possible, and I immediately went on line– Expedia, Travelocity, etc., as well as the sites for Delta, American, and Continental Airlines - to see what flights were available. Continental offered the most direct, favorably scheduled, inexpensive option, so I proceeded to try to complete the booking through Expedia, only to be blocked at the final step each time. When I called the Expedia 800 number for assistance, I discovered that the agent was looking at the same screen as me, and that she had no idea what to do next – except that during the time it took for her to reveal her incompetence, the few remaining seats were taken. So I called Continental directly – now desperately worried that in addition to losing the discounted $688 roundtrip (less than the $1,100 norm), I might also be blocked from any seat at all. I told the agent what I was trying to do, the flights I had hoped to catch, etc, and waited for her response. OK – we’ve got two seats for you on each of those flights, her answer. Great, at what cost, I hesitated to ask. $462.80. Huh? Have we got this right? I asked her to repeat the itinerary. She confirmed. Then I asked her name, so I could thank her. When she answered, I knew that the journey I was about to begin was into the unknown, and that Rod Serling was surely looking down and smiling - Katrina.
(“There is a fifth dimension beyond that which is known to man. It is a dimension as vast as space and timeless as infinity. It is the middle ground between light and shadow, between science and superstition, and it lies between the pit of man’s fears and the summit of his knowledge. This is the dimension of imagination. It is an area we call the Twilight Zone.”)
One has to pack appropriately for such a journey, so I did what any right-thinking person might do; I went to the local hardware store. There, I bought latex gloves and a pair of construction gloves (the woven sort, with latex dipped palms and fingers), and N-95 breathing masks for each of us, fresh batteries for the flashlights, tape and plastic drop-clothes. I rummaged through my closet and pulled together a wardrobe of the worn and threadbare, including two much beloved Lorenzini long-sleeve shirts – one for Marianne, one for me – these to wear while in New Orleans, to protect against the reported infestation of mosquitoes and black flies. As further precaution, I also packed my “illegal” bottle of Ben’s insect repellant – 95% Deet – far more dangerous than a nail clipper, but not on the TSA’s list of prohibited items. Marianne had procured the final wardrobe item – shin high rubber wading boots – though these were never put into service.
Sunday, 11 September
Entrance to the Twilight Zone passes through gateways that typically go unobserved. Not so this journey – note the date above, and as we left the gate at LaGuardia, the names of those killed four years earlier were being read at Ground Zero. Our first stop, IAH, the International Airport of Houston, is otherwise known as Bush Airport. The second flight was filled with a broad assortment of rescue workers – divers, chaplains, police/ military, and folks like us – from all over the country, and the flight was quiet, as if all of us knew we were headed into a battle of sorts.
Dad & M met us at the airport. We were glad to be together. As Dad drove us to lunch, it was clear that both were more than physically exhausted. There had been no rest – they were in a rented car, in an unfamiliar city, sleeping in a hotel bed, eating out for every meal, wearing the same few clothes over-and-over. They had no clear idea of what might lie ahead, nor any sense of a timetable for the future –whether (or how badly) the house was damaged, how long it might take to repair, when that work could even begin. The future horizon was only two days away, at best – when Lauren and I would return to New York. We learned that they had not had a through-night’s sleep in two weeks, and frequently found themselves up at 3AM – early even for them, that Dad had fallen while in the bathroom at Elise’s house during the blackout. He had bruised his back – no ribs broken, but had been in some pain for several days.
After lunch, we went to Albertson’s and Wal-Mart for some final provisions for the next day’s journey. Sandwiches, cookies, snacks – and a Styrofoam cooler. Marianne had already stocked the car with 24 half-liter bottles of water, and Dad had loaded in two 5-gallon tanks of gas. I have been in K-Mart, Home Depot, and Ikea, but never in a Wal-Mart. Let me say that this can be a very disorienting experience – in spite of the very clear signage – the scale of the operation is overwhelming. (Can you hear the theme music of the Twilight Zone)?
We ate dinner with our relatives in Baton Rouge, and retired early for the long day to follow.
Sunday, 12 September
It was still dark when we left Baton Rouge at 6:30 in the morning, dawn breaking as we entered onto the I10. I drove. Traffic moved at a good pace, and illuminated signs at roadside warned that the left lane was reserved for Emergency Vehicles Only. Within moments, I saw a stream of red, white, and blue flashing lights in the rear-view mirror, and a convoy of more than 25 almost-identical SUVs – Louisiana State Patrol – driving at speed approaching 80MPH whizzed past. We stayed in the right lane, and in spite of the traffic, our speed almost never dropped below 70MPH. Within an hour, we came to a military checkpoint – the entrance to the elevated portion of I10 over the Bonnet Carre spillway at LaPlace – beyond which we had been told only emergency vehicles were permitted. I held up the pass - we expected to be rerouted to US61, the Airline Highway – and was surprised to be waived on. We crossed a threshold at that point, beyond which I can only say we had entered a place and time unlike anything that I have ever known, or would ever have anticipated.
We drove for the next 20-30 minutes in eerie silence. We never saw another vehicle, coming or going, for the first 5-10 miles as we crossed the spillway. As we came into Jefferson Parish, all alone, the silence was punctuated only by our collective gasps as we saw the first signs of destruction – trees toppled, roofs gaping open, entire sides of buildings ripped off, exposing the interiors of houses and apartments, like so many oversized dolls houses. One billboard I spotted, held aloft by two massive steel H columns, was now bent completely over like a pretzel. The detritus of urban life was strewn everywhere – and ahead of us, as far as the eye could see, the I10 - now 6 lanes wide, and empty - narrowed into the horizon.
We turned off at Bonnabel, and headed towards Metairie Road, the principal thoroughfare. We could tell that we were not the first – fallen trees had been cut, cleared, and piled neatly at street edge. But the roads were still empty. We crossed the railroad tracks – the high ground, and turned into Metairie Club Gardens, and the landscape changed dramatically. There was no water in the streets, but there were telltale signs that it had come and gone – the ground was no longer green, but brown. There was an unusual amount of dirt in the streets, and we could see some staining at the bottom of some houses, with bits of grass and leaves stuck along that edge, like coffee grounds. We passed the houses of friends and relatives, and pulled up in front of Dad’s house, the only car on the street.
The sun was up, and the sky was blue, and at first glance, the house looked undisturbed, but the lawn was completely brown, the grass now resembling thatch. Up to a certain level, the bushes looked like they might in a northern winter, denuded of their leaves, though above that they were green and full. It was rather like the Magritte painting, The Empire of Lights, in which a daytime sky is above, and a nighttime street scene below. There was a slightly burnt, slightly musty smell, a whiff of rot and decomposition. And in that moment getting out of the car, as in Bemelman’s Madeleine, we knew all was not right. For those who don’t remember, the doctor summoned in the middle of the night was Dr. Cohn, but now it was morning, and Dad quietly asked, Where are all the animals? And then, we knew what was missing, and what had come upon us – Rachel Carson’s worst fears, the nightmare of The Silent Spring. There was no life – no birds, no squirrels, no insects (as it happened) – nothing but silence. In the face of such a catastrophe, one might understandably wonder about the presence or absence of a God.
The words, Oh My God, were the only ones I heard Dad say when we opened the front door. What lay before us was worse than his worst fears, a scene of such devastation that though I can describe it, and will refer you to a website where I have posted pictures, simply thinking about being there brings on a sadness for which words fail. The waters had risen in the house to a height of perhaps 2 feet, and everything it touched bore the marks. What we stared upon was more a frozen seascape than landscape, though one devoid of water, the parquet floor rising and falling in great waves moving across each room. As the water had risen, it had literally pushed through the sub floor, and the parquet tiles were now frozen in tilted shapes resembling oceanic peaks and valleys. The carpets were still damp, and the floor covered with slippery brown ooze. The smell was awful, rot, damp, fetid. The house was dark, all the shutters and curtains drawn, and the dampness was pervasive.
With flashlights drawn, we inched our way into the house, seeking the low path, since the tilted boards would not bear our weight. Only later did I realize that if I could knock down but one, the entire assembly would collapse, like a house of cards. But at first, we inched our way through the mess. As the water rose, it made everything buoyant, and so things had moved, and come to settle elsewhere. As cabinets floated, or the floor below them tilted, whatever was upon them was thrown down – but they did not break, since they landed in deep water.
I went outdoors and pulled open the shutters that Dad had nailed shut, and this strange surreal interior was brought into the light of this new lifeless day. We would work for perhaps 45 minutes, and emerge bathed in sweat, our gloves covered with this ooze. A bizarre surgical suite, this interior – for which we had donned the latex gloves and the construction gloves and the breathing masks. And the car became the safe haven. We would peel off the gloves, drop the mask, and wash ourselves with Purell. Cold water never tasted so good, but Dad & M had little appetite. I ate. I learned my lesson last summer, bonking at the Tour de France, and this was every bit as challenging.
We discovered we were not alone. First, the local Sheriff’s office patrol came by; then two Humvies, with National Guardsmen from Ft. Bragg. Then the helicopters – all different sorts of helicopters large and small – flew over on a regular but erratic schedule. The President was in New Orleans, perhaps he did a flyover – he certainly didn’t touch down for a photo-op, nor would he have found one. Later in the day, we saw neighbors at work in their homes – all of us in the same predicament – though some houses, closer to Northline and the golf course, were inundated to even greater depths, no less than 4 feet on the first floor.
We continued to make our way through the house until we had surveyed every room on the first floor. This required that I break the door into Marianne’s study, which was jammed against the warped floor, but in truth, the door was already broken, swollen from the flood. Now, I am sorry to report, the story becomes more difficult.
Before Dad and M left the house, they had taken every precaution to protect their beloved collections of glass and art. All of the major pieces of Steuben were put into their original red leather presentation cases (if available) or into boxes. These boxes were set against the base of the walls in the Living and Dining Rooms, along the hall – wherever they would be most sheltered from the high winds. The painting were all taken off the walls, and placed similarly. And, so, that is how we found them – the boxes still in place, but no longer red – now covered with a green mold. The paintings, drawings, whatever, showed just how deep the water had come, though remarkably, none had actually fallen entirely into the slop. We did not touch any of the Steuben, and moved only two pieces of art glass so that we had a place to walk. Where would we put it, after all? The artworks, I triaged – standing them up, raised off the floor on pieces of salvaged parquet, tilted against the wall, so that they had air circulating – what air there would be in the otherwise sealed environment.
Mold was everywhere – creeping up the curtains, the upholstered sofas, the bedding, and on all of the walls. The magnificent furniture repeated the surreal image of the landscape outdoors – the tops looked as though they were ready for a party – wiped bare with finish unblemished - the bottoms swollen, veneer delaminated, pieces broken off, mold growing. We made our way to Dad’s study, where he needed important papers from his desk drawer. The desk, perhaps the single finest piece of cabinetry in the collection, flawlessly built and finished, one of two ever made (the other owned by Senator Jacob Javits) – can I say that it was badly wounded. I tried to open the drawer, but it would not budge. I tried to open the adjacent drawer, and a part of it came off in my hand. I told Dad that we would have no choice but to pry it open, and he instructed me to proceed. This was like an amputation to save the patient. I was successful, the damage limited to the drawer face itself, though that may have been of little consequence. I reached in and extracted the soggy mass of papers. We put them in a plastic bag, and took them to the car. We took the Mac, sitting on the nearby table – it untouched by the deluge. And later that evening, I was able to download and save the data. I could tell exactly how high the water had come – below the computer desk surface was an in-out tray Dad used for letterhead. The lower tray was filled with a soggy mess; the upper tray looking like it was just taken out of its wrapper.
We went to the bedroom to help retrieve some clothing. Dad’s shoes were covered with the same ghastly mold that I previously described. Marianne had a few new pairs high up, and these we took. And so it went. In the end, we took very little, not even too many personal mementos. The day was getting long, it was beastly hot, and there were now more questions than before – can we rebuild? is the mold toxic?, who will do the work?, how long will it take?, how much will it cost? Where will we live meanwhile?
There is another dimension to this disaster, and that is the impact on the human psyche. I cannot be sure what toll this is taking on Dad & M. They have been so brave in the face of so much pain, but I want to share with you two vignettes of how little things matter. Over the course of this long day, we all at one time, or should I say several times, had to use a toilet. But there was no indoor plumbing, so the side yards became the men’s (on the right) and ladies (on the left). Before we left, each of us, in turn, went to those places, stripped bare, and changed into clean clothes we had brought for the purpose. The soiled clothing was left in bags at the curbside for garbage removal, whenever that service is restored. The clothing was tainted with the mold, and we could leave it behind, but the memory of this final ignominy will not quickly be erased.
We drove around the neighborhood, where we saw the same scene repeated over and over. Trees toppled, houses flooded; signs that people had come, and gone; utility workers making repairs to power lines, but otherwise, more of the same eerie silence. We drove to the 17th Street canal, the division between Jefferson and Orleans parish, the fault line of the levee. The stench was horrific, and the water level surprising low, given the ongoing pumping.
We drove to the house of my stepsister Judy – her house completely untouched by the flood, the only damage a broken piece of glass in a screen door. Dad & M packed clothing and a few personal items for Judy, and we left. We do not yet know when Dad & M will return. They stayed the rest of the week in BR, and have now moved on, first bringing Judy to the airport in Houston where she boarded a flight to Denver, and they to Minneapolis (visiting Marianne’s grandchildren Allison and Jake). Friday, they will arrive in New York for 10 days, and then, they return to Louisiana, where they have rented a house in Lake Charles.
Our day was not over, and, I am sorry to say, nor was the final assault on the human spirit. We drove back to Baton Rouge in almost total silence for more than half the 90-minute drive, this time passing an enormous sand camouflaged military convoy (coming, or going?) and then talked only about the plans for the evening. We took Dad & M to the hotel so they could relax, take a bath or shower, change. Lauren and I returned to Elise where we did the same, and then returned to pick them up for dinner.
We went to a quiet place, well perhaps not as quiet as we might have preferred, and ordered stiff drinks. As we began to relax, soft, warm French bread was brought to the table, and Dad took a piece. With the first bite, his front teeth fell out. We thought he had lost a bridge, and Lauren produced dental epoxy from her purse. Dad said he was totally unaware that he had a bridge, but there was clear evidence of dental work. The epoxy failed, and I drove to a nearby Rite-Aid for a tube of Polygrip. Nothing worked, and the effect to Dad was no less than that of being kicked when down. I tell you this because you need to know, and we can only hope, if hope is the right thing to feel, that this will indeed be the low point for him and Marianne in this whole horrible tragedy.
When Dad was finally able to see a dentist in BR two days later, the dentist told him he had broken good teeth, and asked if he had recently received a blow to the face. We do not know if this had it’s beginning in the bathroom fall at Elise; all we know at this time is that when Dad arrives here Friday, he will still be without his front teeth. We have an appointment scheduled for him first thing Monday. Dad told me to forewarn Adrian of this, in addition to the possibility that he may not be wearing a tie – a certain sign of change.
Change does not come easy to anyone turning 84, certainly not to someone whose entire life has been molded by principles whose origins can be traced to antiquity, scripture, institutional or family history. Dad’s dad, who I called Grandcup, was of the generation Alvin Toffler described in his book, Future Shock – a generation which was born while the horse and buggy was the typical means of transportation, and who lived to see a man stand on the moon. I submit that Dad is now in a latter day version of this evolution (and he may yet, understandably, be in shock), which we may call Present/Future Shock. All of the standards that he has known have been washed away with this storm, some friends already making plans for permanent relocation. The teaching facility at LSU Medical Center that bears his name was under some water, and the school is temporarily relocated to Baton Rouge. And, without a fixed, permanent address to receive mail, he has already been confronted by the bureaucracies of investment services that refuse to provide him with passwords to access his accounts on the Internet, for the simple reason that they insist on mailing him the authorization codes. His conversion may be as simple as going from a paper-based system to an electronic one. Or it may be as complex as to sharpen his focus on the ephemeral, the moment that is fleetingly here, and then gone, but with the capacity to be carried in our memories in ways that outlive those that are fixed and permanent.
I do not pretend to know what the future will bring. I can only tell you this: We will all return to New Orleans. What you have just read is the personal account of two individuals impacted by this catastrophe, but they, and we know that the problem is broad and deep. As I have written in earlier e-mails, and will write more in days to come, rebuilding New Orleans and the Gulf Coast is an obligation, a debt that our generation owes to those that follow, and we cannot rest until that work is done.